Lost and found…
It’s been a while since I posted anything.
Like the song says…”I was lost but now am found.”
I’ve done more writing than shows up here. I’ve written website content, an email marketing piece, built a bunch of websites, half written over a dozen poems, drilled away at a bunch of short stories and punched keys on the book I am writing.
The biggest thing I have been struggling with is the loss of motivation because I haven’t been out networking and building relationships.
A short while ago I discovered that as I became less and less busy I became less and less productive.
I realized I was lost…
but now I am found.
What does that mean?
It means I am writing again. I have written more in the last sixty days than I have in the four months before that.
In March after neck surgery I lost the use of my right arm. I have some use back but am still limited.
I have found different ways to do things that I was able to do without thinking.
I have learned to accept help when it was offered.
I have been humbled and then I turned that into self-humiliation felt worth less (yes two words because I didn’t feel worthless I felt that I was not as valuable or an asset).
I developed some very bad time wasting habits because I was so unlimited by time and had such a loss of self worth. Those bad habits took control and I would spend a great deal of time being non-productive.
But my creativity has never stopped. My mind still functions and when I use it it functions better. It takes a lot of stimulus and effort to break bad habits. I had to create the habit of creativity. I had to work a few minutes at a time to push away the time wasting habits and transform creative thoughts to production.
I was lost but now am found.
In other words I am back! I have a new attitude and a wonderful appreciation of writing.
I am going to keep develop the writing habit I had and make it a strong again.
Over the last few years I spent a great deal of time networking, building relationships, meeting people, trying to grow a business but during the last few months of isolation I realized (actually it should be admitted not realized) a few things. Here are some of them…
- Not many people like me. They don’t dislike me but I am not on their “Let’s go for a coffee,lunch, drink etc. list” I am a fount of useless knowledge that most people don’t care about.
- I am not a warm and cuddly personality. I am a bit reserved (some people say aloof) and not a good let alone a great conversationalist.
- I am an introvert. I enjoy being alone. I find it hard to be out and be social because I am terrible at keeping up with conversations and knowing the various things happening in the world that people talk about.
- I would rather spend three hours writing a paragraph until it conveyed the right message for a client than risk saying the wrong thing (thankfully the clients who hire me want the right message). I am better at project billing than hourly billing because if I went hourly my clients would think I was ripping them off by billing like a lawyer.
- Even though I like the knowledge of building a website I would rather just supply the content. (Sadly people value the look of a website more than the content. People see looks but serious buyers and search engines search content.)
- I am a “techie”. I love knowing about technical things and am fascinated by equipment, software, technology, anything electrical, energy saving, energy generation, and recycling just to name a few things. I bore people when I start to talk about these things.
- I enjoy writing about things and for clients where I have to learn about them and there products or services.
I was lost but now am found…
I am writing again. Stay tuned.